A few days before, I still have a teeny-weeny bit of confidence in myself that I can pass my last paper. But that confidence has been destroyed! I've been having very frequent freaky dreams of me failing that blardee subject, that explains why I have trouble sleeping (its 8:15 in the morning!). And when I mention freaky..it is FREAKY! One example, I was sitting in a very very extremely huge hall ALONE. There was only one dumb-ass table and a dumb-ass chair right in the middle of the blardy hall. Yes, that dumb-ass table and dumb-ass chair was for me, only me. I guess I was the only arse that failed, so sad. And there were 4 freaky lecturers, I didn't recognise any of them except for one, staring right at me with scary eyes. They didn't take their eyes off me as though I was gonna cheat or whatsoever. And you know what the paper was on the table?..a fucking Doraemon colouring contest... I'm suppose to colour it! hhaha. How pathetic. Its like God trying to tell me I failed a paper that was suppose to be as easy as a colouring contest? Well, that's how I interpret that dream of mine. And oh, the last part about the Doraemon thingy was probably because I've been reading too much of Doraemon lately(under the influence of Game Tan!). I don't wanna be repeating the most interesting subject, I DOWAN!!!!!! =(

Now was that dream STUPID? It was scary..really scary. If only you saw the lecturers faces, they look more like..urm..alien+human(ok mind that, it should be the result of too much of TV). Yes, and I suppose some of you will be saying I always have weird dreams, but I think these dreams I have these few days has a meaning *sobs* I'm gonna fail the blardee paper *cries like a baby* That would be the first official paper that I would be failing, oh and probably my CorporateLaw paper too which my confidence seem to slowly..slowly..very slowly..flying away from me. How shit up can it get? I have not failed any papers so far in my uni life, and now failing 2..TWO! Gosh, I wish life was way easier than this. Right now I really wanna stop studyin, stop going to college, throw away all my books and probably just collect 10cents entrance fee from people outside the toilet!! Then I wouldn't have to worry so much about failing any stupid subject!! I curse the mutha-fucker who thought of this stupid idea of having stupid examinations for no fucking reasons!!! Argh.

I'm gonna fail 2 subjects *sobs* I'm so pissed of with myself, frustrated and angry. I feel stupid and dumb. I don't know why but I feel like my life's gonna be over. I suddenly just feel like dying, don't ask why. Life seems to be getting harder.

Slaughter me, Stab me, Shoot me..just kill me and let me die.

I hope and pray that my dreams aren't real. I wanna pass my papers, just pass them will do.
God, help me please.. =(

Its the fifth day of my lil holiday and I'm enjoying every single second of it! haha

I spend all day sleeping, sleeping, sleeping and yes SLEEPING! =) Sleep is good, its heaven for me! Its extremely great to sleep through the whole day without any worries. There's no need to wake up early in the morning to head to college, no waking up for any stupid studyings. Just beautiful. I've been sleeping at least 12 hours everyday. My wake up time right now is 6pm. Although sometimes I feel lifeless sleeping for so long and waking up so late, but I just cant help it. There are times when I wanna wake up early to do something more productive, but everytime I open my eyes and try pulling myself out of bed, I'll find myself back in lalaland the very next second! haha. So I think God wants me to spend more time on my comfy lil bed as a reward for being so hardworking on my finals. haha =D

Anyways, clowny will be going up Genting to gamble tonight. =/ I guess the World Cup is not enough for him. Lets pray that he comes back down with extra $$$ .

Watched TheFast&TheFurious:TokyoDrift on Monday with clowny. Omg, the movie rocks! love it! A must watch movie. And Nathalie Kelley is extremely extremely hot, she's fucking pretty man!! I wish I was half like her. . * dreaming * haha

Nothing much to blog actually, all I do everyday is sleep =D haha. Maybe next week onwards I will try to change my sleeping time so I have extra time to do something else.

tAtA~
* m u a k z *

weeleewaalaaaa~~~~ woohooo~~

one month without (books+stress+classes) = one month of HOLIDAY!
Enjoy~ =D

Finally. I'm done with my dumb-ass finals!
Although I think I would be failing at least 2 subjects, I'm glad its over! I haven't been sleeping much, so sad. So probably for the past few weeks when you were nicely in lalaland, I was bonding with my books..and even when you're awake, I'm still bonding with my books. But with the endless bonding sessions I had with them, there were still no connection. haha. That explain why I screwed up most of my papers! My books don't like me, vice versa. Sigh. I'll be prepared for the worst when my results come out, but for now..its all about enjoying~

Well before I start enjoying, I have to come up with 101 reasons to explain to my parents if I fail any subjects. Help anyone?

Alritey now, time for my beeauuty sleep~ Need to recharge my energy for tonight =D
tAtA~
* m u a k z *

The Gossip Queen is going back to Canada, a place where she'll be all lonely and where her phone won't ring *lol*

Will be missing your bitchy-ness and your vulger-ness!
See you in another 6 months time, ChaoChiBai =p

Love ya, take care biatch~
muahhhzzzz

I've lost all my mood to study, shiats!

I've been sleeping, sleeping, sleeping, and..urm..sleeping! All I did the whole day yesterday and until now was SLEEP! I slept till 7pm yesterday (I went to bed at about 7am), laze around, ate my dinner, watched Portugal vs. Iran (oh yay, RONALDO scored ..eventhough it was a penalty, still HE SCORED A GOAL~! *jumps around like mad* ) , after the match I went back to bed and that was about..urm..11 plus! Woke up at 4 in the morning, came online for about an hour, and there I go back in lalaland! haha. And I just got up about an hour ago =/ Okay, lemme count how many hours I slept altogether..hmmmm..28 hours. hahaha. OMG. I'm so lifeless.

I need to start studying on my last two papers. I have to get rid of the holiday mood I'm having now. Oh God, save me..help me.....

Okay I have to stop blogging and go do some bonding with my books.

tAtA~
* m u a k z *

I'm officially 20 =/

It's still a lil weird when people ask for my age, still getting used to saying twenty and not nineteen. God, I wish I was six-TEEN, seven-TEEN, eight-TEEN, nine-TEEN..and not twenty. Say goodbye to the -TEEN now =( *sobs*

So, my day was spend with all the girlfriends for karaoke sessions in TheCurve *thank you all for coming* =) and dinner with my clown. Nothing special, I don't feel me growing old, haha. Young at heart~ ;) plus, if I were to pull some stranger from God-knows-where, he/she would never guess that I'm 20, am I right? eheh

Anyways, terima kasih for all the wishes, you know who you are lar ya =)

Damn, I'm an old fart now. LiLian the 'louhang' =/

tAtA~
* m u a k z *

Finally, its here.

Sat for my first paper just now at 9am. I swear this is the first and last paper that I will write like God-knows-how-many words. Seriously, I've never written so much for any of my papers before. Break record! I wrote like a mad dog, non-stop. Especially my first question. Omg, it's like never ending. Before completing the first question my hands were already aching like dunno what. But I feel really happy though. I never know my memory is that good! hahaha. I practically wrote out exactly like the 'model' answer I prepared. Every word, every sentence of it. haha. But then I should start praying that my 'model' answers are correct, otherwise koyakz~ *prays* So overall my first question took up 5 pages and for the second 4 pages. Its so unlike me. Usually 5 pages is the total of 2 questions =D

Well, one more paper tomorrow and I can chill for a few days before I start hibernating in my room along with my books/papers again. I can't wait for this to be over. Can't wait.

I haven't slept for 22 hours =/
So I think I should head to lalaland now, its calling for me. =)
Nyts~

tAtA~
* m u a k z *

Okay, my previous post I mentioned that I wish I was a computer right? Then it strike me for a while, what would it be if I really look like computer?..hmmmm...So.......

how do I look?. haha. Am I sexier?? hahah. Shiatz, my lack of sleep making my brains go cuckoo edi. I know, this is damn lame. whatever. I was just curious =D

I can never be hotter/sexier than a computer eh?..That's so sad, so sad.

Okay, so my previous post was 'suppose' to be my last post until my finals are over. But..wat the heck rite. My hands are just itcy. Its not like I blog every single day and all, but its just the fact that like you know the more you're not suppose to do something, the more you'll wanna do it. Get what I mean?..Well, that's how I feel now =D

So, clowny will be away for the weekend. Yes, another competition. This time in Seremban. Sometimes I wish I was a computer, then he would spend like extra time with me. Not to say he doesn't spend enough time with me, but its just that he spend way too much time with the computer and pay way too much attention to the computer. haha. Yes, I'm jealous! I know, it's damn dumb. I'm comparing myself with a non-living thing. haha. That's really silly. Whatever it is, I hope he'll win this competition coz he spend like extra hours this time training for it! hehe.

I have been doing a lil bit of studying the last three days. I spend like one hour on one page? That's damn sad. haha. What to do, I have the laptop like right beside me. So one hour a page is consider damn good already right? =D I can't off my laptop, it just doesn't feel right. But leaving it on just distract me like crazy!! so I'm kinda in dilemma right now, torn in between. wtf? I don't know what the hell I'm typing also la. Can't blame me, who's brains function properly at 6am? I don't even think primary and secondary students in the morning sessions brains can function properly also lo. At least I know mine didn't back then. hehe.

I remember having a reason to blog. I was suppose to blog about something. But then, I forgot. hmmm. Probably coz I typed to much nonsense. Well, that's me..I talk too much nonsense, type too much nonsense. My brains are full of crap! haha. Okay I'm talking too much crap now. So it's best that I just stop blogging eh? =D Plus I think I should get some sleep, have to be up about 9 to accompany my parents do some grocery shopping. Haven't done that in a while. Then I'll be heading to college for some studying sessions with James about 2. I wonder which f**cking idiot came up with exams. Torturing our brains. Ass.

Okay. Goodnyts..or..Good Morning? watever.

tAtA~
* m u a k z *

As you can see, I've changed my blogskin. I don't quite like it though, it's too black and red and dull and dark. But I've got no choice, I found a 16 year old girl using the same skin as my previous one =/ That's why I decided to change it. The heart pics on the side suppose to be some scary looking guy with scary eyes!..damn scary. And it's so not me, so I took it off and replace with this dumb heart picture. haha. I'll probably changed my skin again after my finals. Comment about my skin please. I need some opinions. I think it really suck. haha.

Anyways, I went SHOPPING!!! =D
Went down KL with SuAnn yesterday. I bought 6 items and spent only 200bucks!! Damn cheap! =p I'm still not really satisfied though. I shall go do one more round of shopping after my finals! *can't wait* Shopping Rocks!! It makes me really really really hAppyyy~ Oh, I got f**king stopped by a f**cking FAT ASS policemen on the way there!! I stupidly DONATED 50bucks to avoid the f**king rm300 summon! Although 50bucks its not a very very big amount but giving it to a stupid f**cking fat asshole bastard so-called policemen is so no worth it man. Btw, I got a feeling I kena con edi oso lo. He wasn't wearing his stupid uniform, all he did was just show me his stupid id or whatsoever which I couldn't even see properly. ASS! I hope you f**cking burn in hell, ass! !#$%$%^&*&^%$#! argh.

Ok, I shall not make that fat ass spoil my mood. Shopping still rocks =)

I haven't really started studying for my finals, which is next week, yet. I'm so distracted and lazy. Everytime when I try sitting down on my study table and open my book, my mind will wander somewhere else. I have to get rid of my laptop like a.s.a.p but I can't do it. haha. Its like my life! And I also have to get rid of my bed, it's like constantly calling me to it =p so usually when I want to start studying, I'd end up on my comfy bed. haha. I have to be more determine now. Must do something about the laziness in me.

I think this will be like my last entry until my finals is over. So I'll probably be m.i.a for a while =p I really have to start studying. I'm sorta freaking out a lil. Pray for me. I need serious help.

till then,
tAtA~
* m u a k z *

My life is miserable.

My life is sad.

My life sucks.

I hate my life.

Now, someone shoot me in a head, kill me and let me die.

Please?